It's Official...

I've decided to apply to graduate school for Fall '10. *sigh*

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Sometimes, I think I must be a terrible teacher. Like right now; I just finished grading a quiz that one of my classes took yesterday and the results weren't so great. I know I can be a better teacher, explain concepts better, etc, and I do try and improve or adapt my techniques every day, but on days like today, when it seems like no one in my class is doing well, it's just hard to believe that I'm doing something right. I know I'm doing all I can, but is it really enough? And I know I shouldn't get too emotionally invested in the kids' success or failure because, let's be honest, at some point it's no longer my fault, but I can't help but be sad when any of my kids don't do well. I want them to succeed so badly, but I guess I'm having trouble differentiating between things I can do for them and things they should do for themselves. It's definitely a difficult line to discern...

Hmmm...

Today I:

1. helped plan the spring break to Italy, which I am now 100% going on
2. had a meltdown about graduate school and re-taking the GRE
3. went running for the first time in months
4. overheard, while running, a guy say, "Well I didn't knock her up!"
5. was told that I might be re-hired for the next school year, which would make re-taking the GRE and thinking about graduate school less immediately necessary.
   

All in all, I guess it wasn't a bad day.